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I think pieces longer than like 1000 words I’ll post individually and then group drabbles together based on similarities or AU or whether they were all filled from the same fic meme. I think that will be a good mix of standalone pieces and collections of drabbles

Also just updated two more long fics on there. 

I’m trying to post more things to ao3 to get back into the habit of it but the problem is is that I have so many short things that I feel like can’t stand on their own? But then if I shove them all under one fic no one really reads them then :/

what do other writers do?

i really want to write the younger jack/older rhys fic and finish up the sunscreen massage one i have going…but in general i need to make myself slowdown on fic output because im overwhelming myself and it sucks 

i don’t know why i can’t just shrug off the idea that people don’t like me, especially on the internet of all fucking places like. that comes with the territory. i’ve been on the internet since i was like 12 i should know this and be used to it

but still i’m not. still the idea that people don’t like me because of my fics or my ship or because my fics “ruined” a ship makes me panic and break down and cry and i’m just left thinking why?? why am i not over this? why am i still so emotionally immature? why do i let people get to me?

i think maybe its the fact that i. i don’t think that, fundamentally, i’m even capable of being a good person because of my brain. which isn’t to heap everything on my mental illness. because my brain is me. and it being fragile and prone to emotional outbursts is just the dislikable truth about me as an individual. 

so maybe i cry and get upset still because i feel like deep down these people are right. i am bad. i deserve to be disliked. what i try to write has no merit and is just….empty fluff with no purpose